peacelettersandlove asked: Mind sharing your story with me?
Of course not :)
Although I am not physically anorexic anymore, my mental side is still very much in action.
I have never felt that I fit in, and I guess restricting was my way of coping with not being able to accept myself. I go to an all girls private school, and competition academically is tough, not to mention emphasis on sport, which I have never been interested in. I was an early developer in the chest department, and I felt that attention was often drawn to it. My natural body could be described as curvy, but I saw it as “fat” so I started to eat less.
I lost all of my friends and my emotions, and became very ill, and was only a hair away from being admitted to hospital. I have tried suicide once, and still fall in to depression on a regular basis. Of course there are many more details, but I suppose for anorexics they are pretty run of the mill e.g. like anxiety and OCD.
I’m not at the weight that I used to be, but my body is healthy (ish - I am nowhere near “fit”)
I have realised that grades and money aren’t important. To me, love, happiness, culture, knowledge and travel are.
I am a long way from accepting myself, and don’t see myself being discharged any time soon, but I wouldn’t change what has/is happening to me. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. I just want other people to know that they are beautiful, and want to share my experiences with them.
Photos taken by me and Kathryn as a contribution to the love is louder campaign.
Love is louder than everyone bringing you down.
Contribution to the love is louder campaign.
Taken by Kathryn, featuring me.
Love is louder than the ways in which hate can be expressed.