peacelettersandlove asked: Mind sharing your story with me?
Of course not :)
Although I am not physically anorexic anymore, my mental side is still very much in action.
I have never felt that I fit in, and I guess restricting was my way of coping with not being able to accept myself. I go to an all girls private school, and competition academically is tough, not to mention emphasis on sport, which I have never been interested in. I was an early developer in the chest department, and I felt that attention was often drawn to it. My natural body could be described as curvy, but I saw it as “fat” so I started to eat less.
I lost all of my friends and my emotions, and became very ill, and was only a hair away from being admitted to hospital. I have tried suicide once, and still fall in to depression on a regular basis. Of course there are many more details, but I suppose for anorexics they are pretty run of the mill e.g. like anxiety and OCD.
I’m not at the weight that I used to be, but my body is healthy (ish - I am nowhere near “fit”)
I have realised that grades and money aren’t important. To me, love, happiness, culture, knowledge and travel are.
I am a long way from accepting myself, and don’t see myself being discharged any time soon, but I wouldn’t change what has/is happening to me. “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”. I just want other people to know that they are beautiful, and want to share my experiences with them.
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Photos taken by me and Kathryn as a contribution to the love is louder campaign.
Love is louder than everyone bringing you down.
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(Source: reinforcingantiana)
Contribution to the love is louder campaign.
Taken by Kathryn, featuring me.
Love is louder than the ways in which hate can be expressed.
<3
(Source: reinforcingantiana)
